Hello friends. I don’t often do this as reading my journal entries without having read the book first and seeing all the validations to show how this can be real is often confusing. That being said, this seemed like an important message to get out as I know so many are struggling with the holidays. This is my journal entry from my conversation last night with David and Hobi. We had something else happen today that David told us was going to happen that I cannot share right now, but yet another amazing confirmation that my connection with him is truly real. We are shocked daily and so blessed. I hope sharing our journal entry helps if even in the tiniest of ways to ease your grief during the holiday season.
Journal Entry: 12/23/25
The day before Christmas Eve. Our family on my husband’s side always celebrates together Christmas Eve. Today I did a lot of those last-minute errands and kept busy, but David was on my mind all day. It just seems so wrong not purchasing gifts for him, having him with us and moving forward in life without him here. At the same time, I would be lying if I did not admit that part of me is counting down – 2 more days until the holiday is here and over with. Then New Year’s Day will be here… then his birthday in February… St. Patrick’s Day which was one of his favorite holidays… the hamster wheel continues.
Michelle (M): Hi Monkey. It is funny how I feel so strong because we have this connection, and at the same time I am fighting to not let my head and heart go dark.
David (D): I do really wish I could be there in person.
M: While selfishly I am glad to hear you say that, part of me feels even worse as the last thing I want is for you to be sad.
D: It is not like that here. We can really miss you, but sadness is not something we experience here in Heaven.
M: Oh, how wonderful that sounds. With the holidays being here, our emotions are quite intense as I am sure you can see and remember. I am hearing from a lot of people who have read the book and reached out, and they are sharing how much the book has helped them. Do you ever discuss amongst yourselves in Heaven about how this time of year is hard for us, that you miss being here, etc.? I imagine people at a coffee shop chatting. Do you do that in Heaven?
D: Mom, we do talk to each other here and we see how our families on Earth are struggling this time of year. We all wish the commercialism of Christmas could stop and the focus of the holiday could be on Jesus as it was meant to be.
M: Can you expand on Jesus?
D: I would want everyone to focus on the reason of the holiday and his birth. The holiday was never meant to be commercial.
M: As you know, I did not put up any decorations or Christmas tree this year. I found it to be so much more peaceful to come home and not have the “holiday” in my face. That being said, what you just mentioned made me think that next year I will bring up my Precious Moments nativity as that would be something that would be comforting to see. What words of wisdom can you or Hobi offer to all those struggling to get through the holidays without their loved ones? In addition to remembering the true meaning of Christmas or whatever holiday their religion practices.
Hobi (H): It is Hobi.
M: Hi Hobi. (For those that have not read the book yet, Hobi is my spirit guide that my son David brought to me after his passing… long story.)
H: Try to remember that while you cannot see us, we really are right here with you.
D: Mom, people need to realize that while we cannot communicate through speech, we are the little nudges in your thoughts. The bird that makes you think of us is because we put the thought there. The angel or cross you hang on your wall is because we send it your way. When you feel the urge to stop walking suddenly and miss being hit by a falling tree branch, we are giving you that nudge.
H: Hobi here again. Very few people realize their loved ones are sending them signs. They think they are not getting any, but it is because they are missing them. They are too depressed to see them.
M: I go through periods of this myself. When I work hard, and it is really truly work, to keep my spirit up I see the signs. When I am down I will realize I have not seen anything in a while. Then I notice I was not really watching for them either.
D: Mom, I really feel like writing helps. A journal helps get your emotions out and opens you up to connection.
M: So, they should take some time most days to just put on paper whatever comes to mind, correct? The good, the bad and the ugly. Just get it out?
D: Yes, and to get through the holidays it would be a great time to start.
M: Any last words before we call it a night?
D: Your loved ones are happy. They are with you. You owe it to yourself to make the most of the life you have left on Earth. If you are in despair, maybe consider counseling, journaling, talking to friends. Study how to create a new type of connection with your loved one. I am not saying the pain will never be there, but choose happy.
M: David, maybe we should say “work on choosing happy”. It is a process and easier said than done, but we have to decide to want that for ourselves in honor of our lost loved ones.
D: Exactly, Mom. I Love You.
M: I Love You too.
H: Please tell them to make the holiday about connections and not things. About the lives we are blessed with.
M: Hobi, what would you say to those that are in really dark times or really struggling with life?
H: Get help because with it you can create the life you desire. Study how to connect with God. Make yourself a priority.
M: I have goosebumps.
H: That is because David is hugging you.
I smile at that and then feel even more chills and goosebumps.
Hang in their friends, Reach out to someone you can talk to if you need to. Embrace creating a connection with your child or loved one in Heaven. One breath, one moment at a time.
Merry Christmas Eve,
Michelle Lyn
I am Still Here, Mom 
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